To My Phorum Phamily!!

[Rita]

Phirst of all .. MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL!!!

I am sorry I have been away .. I love you all much!! I have just been going through a lot right now and really don't think I have much to offer .. Lots of stuff going on right now.. > yeah I know right!!
And no I am no traitor I have now been online for anything at all .. had to dust the computer before I even typed on it took 2 cloths in case your wondering I know I promised to check in more often but I just couldn't bring myself to do so .. Nothing but negative stuff to say really ... Kinda like a country song But its starting to play backwards yet again
feeling guilty for disappearing from you all to be honest and to find out my kid is in prison .. I refused to talk to just about everyone .. Including Keith .. Instead I just read books .. Nothing to think about nobody to think about other than my kids ..

OK the positive stuff
Healthy happy ... Got my concealed weapons permit in MASS!! Go ahead look up the terms its NOT EASY ... Haven't shot for 15 years and I am still better than I thought I was all kill shots .. Bought a small amount of weapons Beretta 9mm ruger 22 handgun and a Ruger 10/22 take down all can be concealed Not to mention the ole mans

We have decided we will be moving up to Maine asap

and I have removed anything negative out of my life including family .. I don't have enough energy and time to deal with it anymore and have decided I owe nobody anything especially my energy that could go to positive things

All here has been healthy outside of myself .. had a fever for 4 months I have no idea but that goes into my whatever category

I cant think of much else .. I am sure there will be questions and go on ahead .. ya all know I don't hide a thing .. well other than myself and my numbers have changed .. if you don't have them feel free to message me ..

OHHH LAURA .. I am sorry you called I said I would post and never did! Sorry

[Deleted]

It's great to see'ya on here Ritter.........don't worry bout us or the board.......just worry bout yerself and your's bein fine.....we love ya girl.

[Rita]

Dec 14, 2012 18:34:54 GMT -6 @rumbuzzn said:

It's great to see'ya on here Ritter.........don't worry bout us or the board.......just worry bout yerself and your's bein fine.....we love ya girl.

Thanks Cavey ... and this time copy my # and YES call anytime .. Remind me and get on my ole case just as I did yours even your cavewoman I cant be that isolated again ... where pretty much nobody knows whats going on
Love ya too!!!

[ChileFarmer]

Rita, so happy to hear from you. Been super worried. I have had you on my prayer list. Welcome home. CF

[Rita]

Dec 14, 2012 20:08:15 GMT -6 ChileFarmer said:

Rita, so happy to hear from you. Been super worried. I have had you on my prayer list. Welcome home. CF

I know I have been selfish ... very selfish in fact ... I don't know how to deal with it CF .. sooo again I just read books so I can focus on everything subconsciously until I have the mental knowledge to deal with on a daily level... I have read over 300 books at this point just to keep myself on the good side ... not let my anger or any other feelings out .. I was just here .. Not really speaking or interacting just here .... I am finally escaping this dark area of my life .... Its getting lighter once more this is not me I hate this me

[mogarden]

Rita! Hello ;D Good to see you posting, you always have such interesting things to say. Will you be moving north before Christmas? It should be snowy and "Christmas-ey" up there. I know what you mean about cutting out some un-needed things from your life, BTDT. Life is still good, and you can live it on your own terms. Good luck. I am impressed with anyone that can do that amount of reading, wow! I hope you have a place to garden at your new home.

[Rita]

Dec 15, 2012 4:19:47 GMT -6 mogarden said:

Rita! Hello ;D Good to see you posting, you always have such interesting things to say. Will you be moving north before Christmas? It should be snowy and "Christmas-ey" up there. I know what you mean about cutting out some un-needed things from your life, BTDT. Life is still good, and you can live it on your own terms. Good luck. I am impressed with anyone that can do that amount of reading, wow! I hope you have a place to garden at your new home.

Interesting is an understatement
NO we are really hoping for next spring / summer to move and... Must have at least 15 acres least this is what we are hoping for ..

Ohhh I have done a great job at filling my head up with these sci fi books

[Penny]

Welcome back Rita!!!

I am so glad to see you, it was just the other day that i asked Phil if he had heard from you, and here you are

Huggs to you Hun, i know you've been dealing with some crappy stuff, and somtimes we all need a break.

Got your new numbers, and i'll be calling ya ;D

[Pharmer Phil]

Dec 14, 2012 17:33:23 GMT -6 Rita said:

Phirst of all .. MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL!!!

I am sorry I have been away .. I love you all much!! I have just been going through a lot right now and really don't think I have much to offer .. Lots of stuff going on right now.. > yeah I know right!!
And no I am no traitor I have now been online for anything at all .. had to dust the computer before I even typed on it took 2 cloths in case your wondering I know I promised to check in more often but I just couldn't bring myself to do so .. Nothing but negative stuff to say really ... Kinda like a country song But its starting to play backwards yet again
feeling guilty for disappearing from you all to be honest and to find out my kid is in prison .. I refused to talk to just about everyone .. Including Keith .. Instead I just read books .. Nothing to think about nobody to think about other than my kids ..

OK the positive stuff
Healthy happy ... Got my concealed weapons permit in MASS!! Go ahead look up the terms its NOT EASY ... Haven't shot for 15 years and I am still better than I thought I was all kill shots .. Bought a small amount of weapons Beretta 9mm ruger 22 handgun and a Ruger 10/22 take down all can be concealed Not to mention the ole mans

We have decided we will be moving up to Maine asap

and I have removed anything negative out of my life including family .. I don't have enough energy and time to deal with it anymore and have decided I owe nobody anything especially my energy that could go to positive things

All here has been healthy outside of myself .. had a fever for 4 months I have no idea but that goes into my whatever category

I cant think of much else .. I am sure there will be questions and go on ahead .. ya all know I don't hide a thing .. well other than myself and my numbers have changed .. if you don't have them feel free to message me ..

OHHH LAURA .. I am sorry you called I said I would post and never did! Sorry

Rita, You just do what it takes...we will always be here for You...no expectations...

HAPPY HOLIDAYS AND MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU AND YOURS RITA...

I just got the present I wished for...
You...letting Us all know you are OK...

But..You always have a lot to offer Rita...and we all miss ya a lot when you are missing.

I'll sho behave here...cause Ya gots a gun

And...
I knows you were MIA..everywhere...

ONWARD and UPWARD...
putting aside all the other stuff...I/we needs Ya Kiddo

And remember Rita...Your energy is yours, not to be taken by those who thrive on taking yours

[w8in4dave]

Rita so glad to see ya hun!! Yup as stated above just do what ya gotta do sweetie, I have been thinking about you and wondering how you were doing. Everybody gets busy so I figured you were just busy busy .... Bless you sweetie and prayers sent your way to help you cope with what ever troubles you may be going thru!!!! Huggs!

[spuds]

Rita,youve gone thru some big shocks lately so not surprising youve felt as you did/do.

It'll be OK,if you need to make changes in your routine we all understand.

You and your family will all be in my prayers for comfort and recovery to your good ole happy selves.

You can always PM me if you need a friend to bounce thoughts off of.

Look forward to hearing of your decision and plans of moving to Maine,what an adventure that is going to be.

[Rita]

Thanks Everyone! I am doing my best to ditch the abnormal Tude ... The regular one I gave up on long ago

Yes Hopefully starting in the New Year we will also be able to start searching for that Perfect Home

[Pharmer Phil]

Dec 15, 2012 15:50:06 GMT -6 Rita said:

Thanks Everyone! I am doing my best to ditch the abnormal Tude ... The regular one I gave up on long ago

Yes Hopefully starting in the New Year we will also be able to start searching for that Perfect Home

lookin for a new home...Oh...lemme help Rita...gots Us Hi-speed now...I'm a searchin' Phool (or at very least a phool)

Oh..and Ya asked about da Voodoo guy...right where he always was

now about the "tude" you sound mostly healed already... just sayin'..
maybe write a country song??

however...I don't think there is much you can do about ABNORMAL
cause we done discussed abnormal and we's decided our abnormal was da NEW NORMAL...and we were born with it


OK, gonna PM ya because I gots sumpin to show Ya...

[Colorado]

Glad you are back Rita..Good luck in finding the place your really want.

[Laura]

Welcome back Miss Rita!! We sure missed you! More then you will ever know.
It's o.k. you did not check in after the monster storm. I let pholks know you all were o.k. & that is what was important.

Always know this Rita..you are very much loved & appreciated here at your phorum home!

[Christy]

Rita!
Glad ya checked in missed ya! Glad your coming around Take all the time ya need!

I have removed anything negative out of my life including family .. I don't have enough energy and time to deal with it anymore and have decided I owe nobody anything especially my energy that could go to positive things

I did the same thing when going through my own life thing. not easy at first,but you'll find yourself much happier in the end.

[w8in4dave]

Dec 16, 2012 7:19:55 GMT -6 Pharmer Phil said:

Dec 15, 2012 15:50:06 GMT -6 Rita said:

Thanks Everyone! I am doing my best to ditch the abnormal Tude ... The regular one I gave up on long ago

Yes Hopefully starting in the New Year we will also be able to start searching for that Perfect Home

lookin for a new home...Oh...lemme help Rita...gots Us Hi-speed now...I'm a searchin' Phool (or at very least a phool)

Oh..and Ya asked about da Voodoo guy...right where he always was

now about the "tude" you sound mostly healed already... just sayin'..
maybe write a country song??

however...I don't think there is much you can do about ABNORMAL
cause we done discussed abnormal and we's decided our abnormal was da NEW NORMAL...and we were born with it


OK, gonna PM ya because I gots sumpin to show Ya...

That pharmer Phil sure is phunny!!
We Loves ya Rita

[jerseycub]

Rita: I have been trying to contact you by phone and after reading your post, I understand why I was unable to do so.

What ever it is you are going threw I hope you find piece with yourself. That is most important.

Not to burden you with my own problems other then to say I have had my share also, and from one friend to another, I found solos in concentrating on my own inner piece. God bless you and yours. Have a happy holiday.

[lucy]

Rita, so glad to see you back. Missed your posts. I understand some of what you are going through. I have decided I need to cut some negatives out of my life as well. Haven't figured out how to do that yet. But I really need to do it. My best friend once told me, if you don't see me or hear from me-- you know I need you more than ever. And I have found that to be true about myself. I hope you find peace and I hope you find the perfect place to move to.